Following is an edited transcription
of a Melora session in which both my and a friend's questions
about our relationship with our respective Higher Selves are
answered. It is clear that even if we don't/can't sense Higher
Beings, it doesn't mean that they are NOT there! So it is with
our Higher Self. By including more personal aspects of this session,
I am letting readers and clients know that I undergo my own spiritual
struggles from time to time. What Melora refers to at the end
of the article is that since I had not worked with Melora directly
for almost two years, I wasn't at all sure she would "be
there" for me for this session. Right before we began, I
felt the old, familiar Melora energy very strongly, and then
I knew we would have a powerful session.
(from
a session with a friend)
MELORA: We are Melora, and
we welcome you today. Your question prompts us to say something
about the relationship with one's Higher Self. People who believe
that they should follow whatever their Higher Self "wants"
for them are opening themselves up to enslavement, either by
their Higher Self or by some being masquerading as their Higher
Self . . . like an astral entity. You all are allowed free will,
and you can trust yourself to make decisions as a being. You
can trust that you have the right to make those decisions for
yourself in this embodiment, to be happy with those decisions
and not to worry about whether your Higher Self approves.
Now, in our discussion of soul hierarchies-and in our discussion
of the Higher Self's role-we have explained that the Higher Self
does indeed get these "spiritual brownie points" earned
by the sufferings and travails of the embodied versions of you.
We don't mean to sound sarcastic about this, but in the Earth
zone-because of the density and the darkness-suffering seems
to be the only way that people's souls can advance.
However, in reality, suffering is not really required for soul
advancement. We hope you are understanding our answer. Suffering
only seems to be what purifies people, that advances them or
makes them grow. It is not really the Higher Self that created
the situation in which only suffering advances the Soul. Thus,
you have the right to trust yourself to keep advancing at the
Soul level without suffering.
The next step in that deductive process, or that rational line
of thought, is that your Higher Self would embrace choices you
make that would liberate you and make you feel wonderful. It's
only those in embodiment, and those "historic" and
experiential illusions that all the great saints had to suffer
or to be martyrs . . . that is at the most extreme degree. Those
beliefs have a grip on many, or most, people, and those beliefs
can be resolved and changed by your free will and your intention.
Our Jyoti is showing us the character Scarlet O'Hara in "Gone
with the Wind": "As God is my witness, I will never
be hungry again!" Those moments of life-changing, gut-wrenching
commitment and intention enable you to manifest what you really
want. Until you have that level of commitment, you will go back-and-forth,
as on a see-saw.
ER: Speaking of Higher Selves, in a way
it's almost like they're wanting us to make our own decisions,
because that's how they experience things through us. It's not
like we come in with everything already pre-set. We may have
some kind of thoughts about some of the things we want to accomplish
in this lifetime, but there's quite a bit of freedom to attain
that in different experimental ways. Do I understand that correctly?
MELORA:Yes! We have said that
in your Soul Group, for example-and your Soul Hierarchy-as that
expresses at "your end" of the hierarchy, in embodiment
in third-dimension, you do have motifs as a group or as a hierarchy
and issues that you want to explore when you come into embodiment
in every lifetime. So, for example, the Pallas Athena motifs
would be Freedom, civilized behavior, the arts, Truth, Courage
. . . do you see? You will come into embodiment with these being
impressed at the Soul level, but then once you get there, anything
can happen. As a result of those impressed motifs that you have
chosen to explore, you will attract certain experiences to you,
but those experiences have not been selected ahead of time.
ER: In my soul group or hierarchy, what
are some of the motifs that we're trying to embody or that kind
of characterize our lineage.
MELORA: It is interesting that
what we're being given as a motif for you is more what's holding
you back. For example, you can say somebody is stubborn and judge
that as "bad," but the flip side of that is that they're
also very loyal. If you throw out stubborn, you throw out loyal.
Answering your question has to do with something that is similar
to that, regarding what's holding you back.
There is such a drive for integrity in the way you conduct yourself
and appear to be to others whom you serve. We realize this is
very convoluted, but we will give you some examples to try to
explain. At the core of what we're trying to describe here is
your requirement for dignity and to be treated with dignity.
At the same time, you have a desire to "let your hair down"
and not be up on a pedestal, because you have found how much
pressure is involved in maintaining that-and that the dignity
is not worth the loss of freedom and expansiveness that your
Soul would really like to experience. And so at the core of the
dignity motif would be integrity of being.
Now, where we are, we are not as hard on you as you are on yourself
about what integrity means. In this world, what happens is that
you have all this propaganda from the church and society-socially
current delusions, and whatever. Whenever you fall for those
structures, it goes against your being-ness. In a way, you have
yourself shackled because of looking at the reflection back from
things that are not really appropriate to tell you about whether
you're in integrity or not.
ER: Yes. Could you give me another example?
MELORA: We will keep going,
and of course everything about you is complex.
ER: [laughs] Thank you.
MELORA: We're trying to get
there. Integrity of Spirit requires you to love yourself (not
out of ego), and so if you're kind to all of these people but
you're not kind to yourself, you come out of integrity with yourself.
It's not okay to mistreat yourself any more than it would be
okay to mistreat others.
Back to integrity, what we're receiving is that your concept
of integrity places a burden of behavior upon you in certain
situations-especially professional situations-that fills you
with tension and that makes you feel constricted. Even though
you need to feel the dignity, you need to feel the respect, and
you need to feel that you're serving, it's kind of been backfiring
for a long time. It's not really giving you what you need, and
it's not really expressing who you are as a being in integrity.
What we're receiving is that the more you pay attention to, and
respond to, your being-ness regarding this motif, the more happy
rewards you will get.
All of the impediments to your being-ness have to do with 3rd-dimensional
concerns, and so trusting yourself, as a being, that you will
be able to actualize your dreams is the sticking point here.
ER: Definitely. And then one last question
for me about my guides: I have a duality here. I feel like I'm
always in contact with them, but then I don't think I am at all.
I think I work with them so much with my inner . . . that I think
they're such a part of me that I don't even feel them anymore
or acknowledge them anymore. I know that sounds totally crazy,
and I can't put it into words.
MELORA:You know, our Jyoti
has discussed this with us before, and we have said that your
guides are always there, whether you're aware of them or not.
This might apply to our Jyoti's question. We'll see. Your guides
may not be the same guides that you used to have, and so you
are perhaps feeling that they're not there because they're not
the ones you're used to. There are so many stimuli around you,
and so much information coming in that you're intuitively receiving,
and so forth, that there's just kind of a lot of static, and
you just need to "tune into that station"-the frequency
of those guides-on purpose. And all you have to do is ask.
There's a main guide with male energy-an almost monk-like energy,
but not in any oppressive sense. This guide is choosing this
energy and form as a quasi-religious figure: someone you would
call "Father" and that you would trust, but not the
stereotypical Catholic monk. More like Francis of Asissi that
you trust as a being and would call "Father." That's
what the energy of this guide feels like. It really is someone
you would go to, not as a father confessor but as someone to
ask advice of and counsel from.
ER: I would like to address some of the
questions that my friend, Jyoti, has in regards to this incredible
sense, sometimes, of separateness--
MELORA: All the time . . .
ER: --or aloofness from her Higher Self
. . . whether this is an intentional thing. If you could clarify
that for us a little bit more.
MELORA: Yes. We would be happy
to do so. We heard two things right off the bat. The first was
how many times in our Jyoti's lifetime people have mistakenly
considered her to be aloof and indifferent, when actually she
is quite the contrary. We could call it an introversion that
is energetic and not just an expression of our Jyoti as more
introverted than extroverted. It is a whole different way of
perceiving reality and reacting to reality when you're an introvert,
versus when you're an extrovert. And yet this is the way she
perceives her own Higher Self to be: indifferent and aloof.
The second thing is that our Jyoti's concept of her Higher Self
and her attempts, if you will, to connect to her Higher Self,
largely are intellectual-largely come from her mind, not her
heart. These attempts also reflect a total lack of nurturing
and parenting in her current lifetime. So her reality, for example,
practically since birth, has been: "They don't care about
me; they don't like me. " There's no parental connection
that allows her to look at herself as having any sort of parental-type
connection or to accept the possibility of that. (This is not
the answer she was expecting.) And so, her Higher Self would
respond if our Jyoti could approach her Higher Self from her
heart, which is a very difficult thing for her to do. The belief
that "they're just not there" is so deeply entrenched.
In a conversation with a so-called "psychic" reader
on the phone about three months ago, our Jyoti became very frustrated
when the woman said, "All you have to do is reach toward
your Higher Self." And our Jyoti said: "I am tired
of reaching toward my Higher Self. I want her to reach toward
me!" And, as with the answer to your question about whether
your guides are really there, we would say to our Jyoti that
her Higher Self is very much there. She even asked once: "Is
my Higher Self retarded or something?" Remember that one?
[laughs] (Her Higher Self does not begrudge that comment.)
So, really, the victory for our Jyoti in this entire lifetime
is to learn to open her heart and not be afraid just to "step
off the cliff" and "go for broke."
ER: That's easier said than done.
MELORA: Of course.
ER: When you're in this
incarnate body and you've been mutilated in the past, it's really
hard to bring your heart out on a platter-the sense of trust
is huge. How can Jyoti's Higher Self, and her guides, and the
people like us who love her, support her on this journey. It's
sure not an easy one, from where we see it.
MELORA: The truth is that our
Jyoti is afraid that she'll just break apart. She's afraid that
if she lets go to that extent, she'll be annihilated-and not
even from outside herself. Kind of implode. It's something that
she needs to deal with gradually but regularly, so that she can
work through it. It is probably the pain-at the core-that she's
afraid of and that she masks constantly. But she has made it
much bigger than it really is in the sense of fearing going to
that core-fearing the feeling of what's really under there that's
she's tried so hard for so many years to heal . . . and that
we're feeling so intensely with her now. It is something that
she needs to do and that she keeps avoiding doing.
ER: Is there any technique that is available
to us that--
MELORA: She's saying "amnesia."
[laughs]
ER: "Amnesia." [laughs] Anything that might
be helpful for her? To kind of approach this in a systematic,
comfortable way?
MELORA: No. We're hearing that
this feeling of disconnect from her Higher Self is a pivotal
sign, or a pivotal emblem, of the problem itself. We're sensing
that it would be easier for our Jyoti, sincerely and intensely,
from her heart, to ask for that connection with her Higher Self
and not say: "You owe this to me" and "Why aren't
you reaching back toward me?" and some four-letter words.
Like a temper tantrum of a child that is not getting what it
wants. That is the unhealed child in her that is really mad and
hurts.
ER: Could a form of Jyoti that is the adult
intercede?
MELORA: She has tried this,
but it hasn't worked so far.
ER: It doesn't have to be right now, but
if you could clarify this--
MELORA: What we would like
to attempt here is . . . we say "attempt" because,
if you understand the strange situation of our speaking through
Jyoti while we say we would like to connect her with her Higher
Self . . . It's a kind of schizophrenic thing, but our Jyoti's
become used to it over our years of working with someone else
who is asking questions for her in her behalf. Give us a moment.
We are endeavoring to give our Jyoti a visual representation
of her Higher Self-not just her usual impression of "a blank
wall"-to give herself some kind of form, so that she can
relate to her Higher Self. Up until this point, she has decided
that she might as well not have a Higher Self, do you see. This
disconnection is so extreme that it is as though she cannot even
imagine she has a Higher Self.
We are giving her physical sensations as well-what you have when
there's a real person there with you. [long pause while I experience
my Higher Self] Okay. That's helping. [another long pause while
I experience my Higher Self for the first time] All right. We
did not want to interrupt her experience by commenting while
it was going on.
The breakthrough here for our Jyoti, who always claims she's
not very visual, is that she was given a very powerful visual
representation of her Higher Self coming toward her . . . with
beautiful light and a sense of movement, and with the gown and
robes flowing back and away from "the form" of her
Higher Self. And our Jyoti was seeing the light and feeling angelic
kinds of energies. The important thing is that we are making
this real for our Jyoti, because she used to feel nothingness
when she would think of her Higher Self or try to contact her
Higher Self.
This was an impressive entrance of her Higher Self as we helped
our Jyoti feel her Higher Self's energy. It is definitely a female
Higher Self, with beautiful golden blonde hair. No angel "wings"
but a sense of power-great power-and yet a calm center, andshe
was just flying toward our Jyoti. Flying through space and time
to our Jyoti, and then enfolding her in her arms. And our Jyoti
is saying: "That's enough-enough for right now." But
we know this is a big breakthrough, and so we can start here
and continue with this as time goes on.
Now that our Jyoti has this image, she can close her eyes and
feel what it feels like and imagine it, which is often the way
we have counseled clients in the past. This is a very positive,
good first step, and we thank you for inquiring in our Jyoti's
behalf.
ER: Any messages that her Higher Self wants
to give Jyoti? Not extensive, but any words of wisdom?
MELORA: Well, our Jyoti wishes
to keep this private, because the thing she abhors the most is
crying in front of other people. And kindness melts her down.
We thank you, but this is something she will need to be committed
to: taking time to explore this and to feel all of the love that
is really there for her but that she hasn't believed is there
for her, in spite of her calling her Higher Self "retarded."
In fact, as you can imagine, her Higher Self is quite the opposite.
ER: [laughs]
MELORA: Our Jyoti wouldn't
be as smart as she is if her Higher Self were "retarded."
We thank you for helping our Jyoti by asking these questions.
ER: It's because we love Jyoti.
MELORA: And did you have any
other questions for yourself?
ER: Would it be appropriate to ask for help
in meeting my Higher Self?
MELORA: Absolutely! Since you
are so visual, this should be a lot easier for you than for our
Jyoti, although she is more visual...
ER: --than she gives herself credit for.
MELORA: All right. If you would
start breathing very deeply--as deeply as is comfortable. Don't
force it. When you let your breath out, let it out totally, so
that you can get rid of the carbon dioxide and other toxins as
you breathe out. So breathe as deeply and comfortably as comfortable.
What is the question of your heart that you want to convey to
your Higher Self. If this is private, you can just tell us so,
and then just think of it or sense it, and then we will help
direct that to your Higher Self.
ER: I am sensing it.
MELORA: What we would like
you to see to start out with is a beautiful female hand in the
sky, and you will see the rest of the form later. But reach toward
that beautiful hand. It's not a disembodied hand; it's attached
to someone. [laughs] You will begin to see the shape and form
of your Higher Self as you take the hand of your Higher Self
and as it comes toward you in time and space in this beautiful
sky. Are you seeing that? That the hand is attached to a beautiful
form?
ER: Um hmm.
MELORA: The form now starts
to become clearer. It's as though the form of your Higher Self
is coming out of the clouds, and you are able to see more and
more of this form. And please tell us if that is happening for
you.
ER: Very much so.
MELORA: If you wish, describe
the form of your Higher Self as you are experiencing her.
ER: She looks very Asian, actually, which
surprises me.
MELORA: It shouldn't. What
about your devotion to Quan Yin and what about your children?
ER: Yeah. That's true. Hello!
MELORA: Hello. All right.
And now we would like you to feel all of your senses. Is there
are scent? There's a floral scent, isn't there?
ER: Yeah. You know, it almost smells like
linden. I love linden/freesia flower. It's kind of a linden and
almost a honeysuckle smell. Kind of that sweetness, you know?
MELORA: And are there sounds
associated with your Higher Self-a rustling of clothing?
ER: Yeah. Yeah. It's like she's dancing-not
just dancing but just kind of this beautiful flowing motion.
Almost like a martial arts form . . . like kung fu. Not in a
fighting style-
MELORA: Right. As an art.
ER: Round motions, like circles.
MELORA: Like Tai Chi?
ER: A little quicker and faster than Tai
Chi.
MELORA: What you're experiencing
now is a description of how you realize your dreams: movement
from here to there. And you see it does not have to be like martial
arts. You don't have to be a warrior in order to go from here
to there. Be an artist with what you already know and who you
already are. She's smiling. [laughs] Very affectionate energy
there.
ER: Very much so. I feel like a little kid,
and she's just so smiley and accepting of who I am.
MELORA: It's almost as though
she's performing for you, putting on a little show for you to
entertain and uplift you, and to show you the artistry of your
Soul. We keep hearing this phrase.
ER: Wow! This is really special. Thank you.
MELORA: It is the artistry
that will take you there-not your brain, not your intellect,
but the dance, the movement. And we're hearing that she requests
that you bring your children and husband in and that you all
dance with her. See what happens.
ER: [laughs] It's like a reunion.
And she's gotten bigger.
MELORA: She would like you
to join hands with your children and your husband in a circle.
She's going to provide energy to support this dance. She wants
you to feel the shift from having this feel kind of odd and then
natural to having it be open, joyful and expansive. Please tell
us if and when you get to that point.
ER: Almost there.
MELORA: Just enjoy it with
all of your senses; just open your heart to it.
ER: There's a little resistance and fear
from
[her son].
MELORA: So have your Higher
Self come over to him, embrace him or enfold him, and just feel
that tension resolving. And have him look into her face and see
beyond his being a boy in Boulder, Colorado, and see her with
his Soul-and see his many lifetimes and feel the connection with
the Asian spirit-the Asian, Zen understanding of the flow of
life.
ER: Much better.
MELORA: Um hmm. Because he's
Westernized, he will have forgotten temporarily that Asians do
not look at "this is the beginning" and "this
is the end." The angles go away and nature, and the flow
of things and the movement of things, all continue . . . not
so much the sense of past, present and future of the Western
mind. Your movement as a being from "here" to "there"
is just movement-not a beginning and not an end.
And now we are being asked to bring your mother into the middle
of the circle that you're forming with your husband and your
two children. We would like you to see her transformed, and you
know this doesn't mean that suddenly she's going to become well
in this lifetime.
ER: Exactly.
MELORA: But we would like you
to see her take on a radiance as she becomes liberated from this
lifetime that has been so difficult for her. See the radiance
of her as a being, now, grow brighter and brighter. And tell
us if this is happening for you.
ER: Um hmm.
MELORA: Just stay with that
so that you can be assured that this is really what you're moving
toward with her and what you are wishing to help facilitate for
her: her liberation. And has she transformed in any way?
ER: Um hmm.
MELORA: Good. We would like
you to look at yourself and see if the same thing has happened
to you: see your radiance come up, not that you're going through
transition, but see your radiance come up as you dance around
your mother in a circle with your husband and your children.
Then see the radiance of your children and your husband come
up just like Christmas lights! This is very powerful, isn't it?
ER: Very much so. [sighs]
MELORA: We would like you to
experience that your Higher Self gives all of you a blessing.
[pause] What form, or forms, are the blessings taking? Is she
bringing incense. Is she bestowing light, color?
ER: [pause] More like a globe around
all of us, including my Mom.
MELORA: All right. And see
this as protective and not constrictive, and so let the "globe"
not be too solid. Have it be protective but not the kind of protection
that would keep everything out. You want all these wonderful
things to be coming in now to support. We're seeing the globe
more as the support for your family as a group.
ER: It's [the globe] almost like that movie with Jodie Foster,
with everything moving in all directions. It's cool.
MELORA: Very good, and it is
about going "home." This was so in that movie as well.
All right, and just so that we can gently "disconnect,"
have all of you say goodbye to your wonderful Higher Self. She
is, of course, honoring all of you-those you love so much. Now
see them go back to wherever they were before. Now you and your
Higher Self are together. Get as close to your Higher Self as
you feel comfortable. Let her hold you if that is comfortable.
Just feel what it feels like to be nurtured by her and loved
by her. We see you almost as a small child: five years old, looking
up into her face.
ER: That's exactly it.
MELORA: Let yourself feel all
that love . . . "and healing," she said. And healing.
ER: It's kind of cool: She's giving me back
some of the fire I've lost.
MELORA: Mmm. Stay with that.
ER: [sighs]
MELORA: See if she has a message
for you. It's more fun if you can find it out for yourself, but
if you need our help we are, of course, here for you.
ER: Um, probably a little help...
MELORA: Don't give up so soon.
[laughs] Stay with it.
ER: I see fireworks or
something.
MELORA: What does that feel
like?
ER: Joyous.
MELORA: Good. It's not something
for your brain to interpret. It's like "Yippee!" A
celebration, and fireworks are AWESOME! Sometimes loud, even-hard
for a Libra.
ER: A double-Libra.
MELORA: Loud and boisterous
joy . . . joy with abandon . . . and light . . . exploding.
ER: --which is pretty happy.
MELORA: Does that surprise
you?
ER: No. I guess not, but I wasn't sure.
MELORA: There's a coyness-almost
a flirtatiousness but, of course, higher beings don't really
flirt. It has to do with how they express joy and how they express
affection. And so she has this coy little smile, and we see the
fan coming up to cover the face a little bit because she's smiling
behind the fan. There's a playfulness. That's it. That's what
it is, and definitely Asian.
The word "artistry" keeps coming, so what we will give
you for your homework is to explore your own artistry. "How
am I an artist?" "Why does that word keep coming up,"
and "Why is it that Melora said that artistry-not your mind--is
what will help you realize your dreams."
ER: Does artistry include writing?
MELORA: Artistry includes everything
that expresses you as a being. It's not about work; it's not
about a profession. It's about your qualities as a being and
your expressing them.
ER: Interesting.
MELORA: It's a totally different
way of functioning in the world.
ER: Yeah, it really is.
MELORA: A lot more fun. [laughs]
ER: [laughs] Melora, you are incredible!
Thank you: both you and Jyoti.
MELORA: It is our very, very
great pleasure.
ER: This is one of the most transcendent
experiences I've ever had.
MELORA: Well, we wish to assure
our Jyoti that we are indeed here. It's not a matter of "Melora
is back." Melora never went away. And so our Jyoti had said
before the session: "I will totally let go of my ego; I
will not have my personality involved when Melora comes through."
It has been our very great pleasure to serve you in the Light,
and we are Melora.