St. Germain through Joanna
I am St. Germain. It is a great honor
and privilege to be with you here this evening. We have been
discussing energy. As you may have understood in having read
information about me that has come through--either erroneously
or truly--other channels, and so forth, I am considered a master
of the use of energy. An alchemist, a magician, if you will.
In my Merlin expression I am interpreted as quite a crusty old
fellow . . .very gruff, sort of world-weary and tired of it all,
and so forth. We all have our grumpy days, and so it is in soul
expression, in so-called "past" lives and in various
When you're in a body, and when, day after
day, no one around you seems to want to relate to who they really
are, it can get frustrating to a "magician." It seems
easy when you're not in a body to make all these plans for what
you wish to accomplish when you're in a body, but when you get
in that body, you say something like "Oh, no! What have
I done!" And you're doing that in many lives at one time.
There's this ringing chorus of "Oh, no! What have I done!"
throughout your many lives. But you come into expression as a
soul group to explore certain issues--for example, Courage. Truth.
Many great masters, as you know, came
into being at the time of your American Revolution. All your
Founding Fathers were masons--very mystical men, as you know.
Spiritual adepts. Again, you have a period in history in which
there's an acceleration of consciousness. One such obvious one
would have been the Renaissance. Suddenly, seemingly out of nowhere,
there was the flowering of the Arts. This was a shift in consciousness.
Every great age is a representation of a shift of consciousness,
only none can compare to the one you're going through now in
your Ascension consciousness. Understand that this is not the
first time this has happened. It happens with regularity and
This evening I wish to give you some information
about mastering your use of energy. You have thought of the mastery
of the uses of energy as magic or alchemy: translating base metals
into gold, and so forth. This is nothing but understanding that
everything which you live here is a hologram. Therefore, you
create holographically within the rules and dimensions here what
you need in your life, whether it be financial, relationship,
and so forth. Once you get into a holographic kind of perceptual
habit, then you learn the rules and you extend from your spiritual
evolution into the ability to call forth. You demand. You don't
say: "Please" and grovel. You say: "I command.
I demand." This is your mastery.
Because of some confusions in the interpretations
of religion and so forth, people have come to feel that it is
wrong to demand and to command. But, you see, that is what masters
do. Boom! "I command this to manifest in my hand" or
whatever it might be. Of course you're not going to do this overnight
because your belief structures are not going to allow you to.
But, I assure you, if you were able to come into total, absolute
belief that you could manifest piles of $100 bills in your hand,
you could. So only your lack of belief holds you back.
When manifesting it is important to be
in a state of expectancy. Expectancy is a state of being, and
I would use this term instead of "expectation" just
because of the connotation. Expectancy doesn't require some outcome.
Expectation does. You say, "I am in expectation of such-and-such,
and if it doesn't happen, I get disappointed and depressed."
And there's the attachment, you see. Expectancy is a continuous
state of being where all possibilities can come to me in this
day, in this hour, in this minute. Virtually an infinity of options
can play out. But the starting point, the first step, here is
to see that this reality is a hologram and that you create holographically
It is not difficult to create money if
you realize that money is just energy. Money is a thing that
represents energy and that moves like energy. In fact, money
moves energetically more than it moves actually. You know that
it moves electronically from bank to bank. No bills go anywhere.
Correct? That's just energy moving from one location to another.
The trick to creating your ideal world
is to stop looking for the reflections of your being, your acts.
Gurumayi Chidvilasanda, the great Siddha Guru, has said, "If
you want your dreams to come true . . . wake up!" This means
changing your consciousness. As you evolve "spiritually,"
you lose self-consciousness, and this is both in the sense of
feeling self-conscious and being conscious of self as an identity.
The more empowered you are to work with these holographic-energetic
structures, the less self-conscious you will be. When you are
self-conscious, everything is reflected back to you and then
processed. So I say this, and it reflects back, and I say "This
is the effect it had on so-and-so," and I process it through
my ego. That's what self-consciousness is.
When you come into mastery, you are no
longer attached to the outcome of your words, your thoughts,
your actions. This is what the great enlightened masters mean
by becoming detached. No, you don't become aloof and arrogant
and non-loving. You have compassion, but it is not an attached
compassion; meaning, "I feel compassion for you and I want
to see in the mirror that you're grateful," do you see.
True detachment is not being attached to the results of your
actions, thoughts, words, feelings or deeds--bad or good. Karma
has been created as people are attached to the results. So if
I do good deeds, and I am attached to your thanking me, and on
your putting my name on a plaque?, I create karma. So, in the
next life, you have to give back to me. The idea is not to create
karma. Now, you know that in this great age karma is said to
have been dispelled. It is the end of Kali Yuga, the darkest
spiritual age. You are coming into the Golden Age of Light. But
you create karma within a day, within an hour, and so forth.
You may be wondering why I am telling
you all of this in such detail. It is because it will help you
track your thoughts. You can say: "When I said this to so-and-so,
was I expecting a certain reaction or was I looking to see what
kind of reaction there would be?" There's the attachment.
And so you move into your mastery when you come out of the reflection
back to self. You just do for its own doing. Or you become
what you're doing. You are in a state of being. Then you get
the ecstasy and the joy. Then you get the freedom from having
that mirroring going on, which only gratifies the mind momentarily
and which must be constantly fed like an addiction, again and
I would like someone in the group to pose
a question, a hypothetical situation, and see how I would answer
you. For example: "I have such-and-such a situation in my
life. How would I work with it energy holographically to manifest?"
I'm going back home
to complete the circle with my father, to claim my power. What
I don't understand is why I have this phobia about encountering
spiders when I get there. Is this somehow connected with my father?
Oh, I have an answer right away, and this
comes right out of [the channel's] experience. What you're talking
about is fear of starting over again and again. I will tell you
a story that shows this is truly what your fear of spiders is
trying to tell you. It's about a very big spider, big in the
body, almost crab-like in color, that built a web out on [the
channel's] patio. She felt very honored that the spider picked
this spot. The problem was that she kept forgetting that the
spider was there, and as she would lean over to water her flower
box plants, she would break part of its web. And she did this
five or six times, each time apologizing profusely to the spider.
Or she would go out and see that the wind had disconnected some
of the lines. She would say: "Doesn't that spider know how
to make strong lines anyway? What's wrong with this spider? I
thought spider webs were supposed to be stronger than this."
Finally, she got used to the spider's
being there and no longer disrupted the web. But what happened
is that the left side of the web kept getting disconnected over
and over and over again. Guess what the spider did? Again and
again, the spider rebuilt its elaborate web. [The channel] got
the message. She thought: When this happens to people, they complain.
They'd be saying: "Oh, God. I have to build this web again.
I just did this. This is so much work!" Whine whine. Moan
moan. Groan groan. Do you see? But animals don't complain. This
is the great lesson of nature. They just do what they're intended
to do, just as the spider did. Change, you see, is the nature
of all existence, and in Third Dimension it is the most difficult
to relate to change, because "just when you thought it was
safe to go back in the water," there's Bruce, the shark.
One of the greatest fears of all humans
is big changes, and yet so many of you are actively seeking these
shifts now. You imagine, however, that if you shift in these
ways, then your Ascension path is all going to be beautiful,
and then you can coast for five-thousand lifetimes, or whatever.
There is never any coasting . . . at any level. I never
coast. And, as Jyoti has said, "that is a bummer" in
3-D, because, in the density of the human body, it is intolerable
to the 3rd-dimensional mind to believe that "This goes on
forever at every level of existence." This is purgatory,
like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill one more time. Then
it rolls down, over and over again.
Unencumbered by the body, however, you
experience this as great adventures and opportunities. This is
why your achievement here is so great, and why you are so honored,
and why you are heroes to us. Because doing what you're doing
in physical bodies is incomprehensible on the spiritual level,
and you gain many more "brownie points" by doing it
in a physical body than you do in a disembodied state, which
is why you decided to come here to do this . . . because of the
tremendous merits, if you will, on the Spirit and Soul level,
not only for you but for all in your soul group. For all the
Higher Selves, for all the Oversells, on "up" "up"
up," as you say; for all the angels and Ascended Masters
and all the other Great Beings of Light--every "tiny"
thing that you accomplish here in the light is magnified exponentially,
and only you do not see the greatness of your achievement.
The other vision that I got when you asked
your question about spiders was not that you fear spiders such
as the big, hairy tarantula but more that you fear the spider's
function--the whole process of "building the web."
And this particular spider that I've been telling you about had
a lot of babies too. It was as in the beautiful story, Charlotte's
Web. Do you know that story? It's about rebuilding. It's
about setting up your web that is the whole center of your universe.
Where your food comes in. And then you wrap it, and then you
store it over here in this intersection of these lines.
And the other thing about a web that's
very appropriate here is that when spiders touch a part of the
web, they hear a sound. That's how they always know where
they are so that they don't get caught in their own webs. They
know where all the bugs are because they touch the web and they
can hear all the relationships of those sounds. It's like a xylophone.
So, you see, the web for you, and the whole spider thing, is
the construct of your life as you have known it so far. Quite
literally, you are the weaver of your own destiny.
This "phobia" is actually an
energetic pattern, or energetic structure, representing that
issue that can be read by others. Another channel, for example,
might pick up on that structure and translate it into a clairvoyant
image that makes sense to him as a past life in which you are
trapped in a ravine with tarantulas. It hasn't actually happened
in a past life--that just might be how the channel sees it. In
working through these issues, it is perfectly acceptable, and
totally spiritual, to say "I command those energies."
When you're getting energies that are uncomfortable for you,
that are oppressive, that are having a negative or harmful influence
on you, in your mastery it is your right and your duty to say
"I command you to leave." If you want to use the vernacular,
you can say "Get out of my space!"
There is another important consideration
here having to do with not having self-consciousness, and this
is very important. If you are in expectation that your father
is suddenly going to be like Saul on the road to Damascus or
make a dramatic sea change because of where you are, you may
be disappointed. It is up to you to stay in the space
that you have created in your mastery. The changes may not be
sudden or quick with him. There may be a sense of coming up against
a brick wall, and if you get into a reflective thing it may undermine
the conviction and the heartfelt position that you take with
him when you return. Do you see? If you expect that he will suddenly
say, "Oh, my lost daughter. I'm so sorry, and I now have
jumped from being a 3rd-dimensional to a 6th-dimensional being
because of your presence," you will probably be disappointed.
Another way to resolve a phobia is to
become that thing that you fear. This is done in Native
American shape shifting medicine all the time. The idea is that
you get in to the being of the spider and perceive the
world the way a spider does. Incidentally, this one is quite
neat because this is what you're all working toward in your Ascension
consciousness--coming out of separation--so that you don't say:
"The spider and I are different. The spider and I are separate.
The spider is scary and I'm not." When you come out of these
illusions and come into the Oneness of All, you are the
spider. You are the deer. You are All, and All
This is a nice exercise to do, and it
is something that Native American shamans do as part of their
growth toward that mastery that "shaman" means. "I
shape-shift. I become the fox. I become the wolf. I become the
weasel. I become the eagle and the hawk." Become the spider
for a while. Go into the spider's existence and become one with
that spider, and all fear will go away.
would you direct that energy to a particular spot in the body--say,
for example, for healing?
When you are in discomfort, or in the
disharmony that you call disease, you start focusing on that
place, do you not? Rather intensively, rather repetitively? This
is a good question. We'll experiment here together. Every time
your attention is drawn to that spot, what is your thought? "That
hurts." And you fall "out of love" with that spot
in your body, do you not? This is two-fold. When you're feeling
frustration, anger, victimization, a common reaction is "Why
me?" So you're actually sending non-love to that place and
make it do even more what it's already been doing.
Another method you can use to release
whatever it is from a certain spot is to ask it to speak to you.
Let it tell you what it's expressing, because it's most often
expressing something that you're not allowing yourself
to express. Usually it's something rather deep. So, with love,
the way you would talk to a child who's trying to tell you something,
say: "What is it that you wish to say that nobody else is
listening to?" Children seem to get the most upset when
they're trying to tell you something and you're not listening.
"Please, listen to me." And you can go to that part
of the body and just hear what it's trying to tell you.
And this is the very nature of separation
from Source Creator--the pain that those in 3rd Density feel
lifetime after lifetime. You felt separate from this part (and
it from you) that was in pain. And the greatest pain that is
suffered by humanity is separation from Source Creator. This,
on "a smaller scale," is the same situation as 3rd-dimensional
consciousness being separated and fragmented from the great Divine
Love. Just as easily as you have done here, in this experiment,
you can reconnect with the Divine. It is that simple. Self-Mastery.
What I wanted to say about "I Am
That I Am" is to start thinking of it as a mandala (not
mantra), meaning that it is a circle. The way I would perceive
it is that it's a sort of daisy chain: "I Am That I Am"
in a continuous circle. Truly, the meaning is NOT: "I Am
That I Am" . . . period--end of sentence--but an infinite
circle. You Are Already Where We Are. This is why we tell
you that we wish you not to bow down to us, not to make us your
gurus; we don't wish you to worship us. We see you as equals,
in your terms (we would not use this term because we experience
the Oneness). We do NOT see you as these little people to whom
we talk to try to make you feel better. Only dark beings would
ever say such things to you.
We see you as those working with us continuously.
Understand also that you are working within other dimensions,
and you are working in your expressions in dimensions from which
I am actually "speaking" to you. In your aspect that
you would term "higher," you are standing beside me
talking to yourself here. Do you understand? You are in all those
"places" and all those "dimensions" at one
time, and you are standing next to me looking at you, now, and
talking to yourself now. You, yourselves, are here--wherever
it is I truly am; you are here too, and you are in the same "state"
as I am, only you may not perceive that.