MASTERING ENERGY
St.
Germain through Joanna Neff 
(from
a channeling in Ft.Collins, Colorado)
I am St. Germain. It is a great
honor and privilege to be with you here this evening. We have
been discussing energy. As you may have understood in having
read information about me that has come through--either erroneously
or truly--other channels, and so forth, I am considered a master
of the use of energy. An alchemist, a magician, if you will.
In my Merlin expression I am interpreted as quite a crusty old
fellow . . .very gruff, sort of world-weary and tired of it all,
and so forth. We all have our grumpy days, and so it is in soul
expression, in so-called "past" lives and in various
other expressions.
When you're in a body, and when,
day after day, no one around you seems to want to relate to who
they really are, it can get frustrating to a "magician."
It seems easy when you're not in a body to make all these plans
for what you wish to accomplish when you're in a body, but when
you get in that body, you say something like "Oh, no! What
have I done!" And you're doing that in many lives at one
time. There's this ringing chorus of "Oh, no! What have
I done!" throughout your many lives. But you come into expression
as a soul group to explore certain issues--for example, Courage.
Truth. Freedom.
Many great masters, as you know,
came into being at the time of your American Revolution. All
your Founding Fathers were masons--very mystical men, as you
know. Spiritual adepts. Again, you have a period in history in
which there's an acceleration of consciousness. One such obvious
one would have been the Renaissance. Suddenly, seemingly out
of nowhere, there was the flowering of the Arts. This was a shift
in consciousness. Every great age is a representation of a shift
of consciousness, only none can compare to the one you're going
through now in your Ascension consciousness. Understand that
this is not the first time this has happened. It happens with
regularity and in cycles.
This evening I wish to give
you some information about mastering your use of energy. You
have thought of the mastery of the uses of energy as magic or
alchemy: translating base metals into gold, and so forth. This
is nothing but understanding that everything which you live here
is a hologram. Therefore, you create holographically within the
rules and dimensions here what you need in your life, whether
it be financial, relationship, and so forth. Once you get into
a holographic kind of perceptual habit, then you learn the rules
and you extend from your spiritual evolution into the ability
to call forth. You demand. You don't say: "Please"
and grovel. You say: "I command. I demand." This is
your mastery.
Because of some confusions in
the interpretations of religion and so forth, people have come
to feel that it is wrong to demand and to command. But, you see,
that is what masters do. Boom! "I command this to manifest
in my hand" or whatever it might be. Of course you're not
going to do this overnight because your belief structures are
not going to allow you to. But, I assure you, if you were able
to come into total, absolute belief that you could manifest piles
of $100 bills in your hand, you could. So only your lack of belief
holds you back.
When manifesting it is important
to be in a state of expectancy. Expectancy is a state of being,
and I would use this term instead of "expectation"
just because of the connotation. Expectancy doesn't require some
outcome. Expectation does. You say, "I am in expectation
of such-and-such, and if it doesn't happen, I get disappointed
and depressed." And there's the attachment, you see. Expectancy
is a continuous state of being where all possibilities can come
to me in this day, in this hour, in this minute. Virtually an
infinity of options can play out. But the starting point, the
first step, here is to see that this reality is a hologram and
that you create holographically within it.
It is not difficult to create
money if you realize that money is just energy. Money is a thing
that represents energy and that moves like energy. In fact, money
moves energetically more than it moves actually. You know that
it moves electronically from bank to bank. No bills go anywhere.
Correct? That's just energy moving from one location to another.
The trick to creating your ideal
world is to stop looking for the reflections of your being, your
acts. Gurumayi Chidvilasanda, the great Siddha Guru, has said,
"If you want your dreams to come true . . . wake up!"
This means changing your consciousness. As you evolve "spiritually,"
you lose self-consciousness, and this is both in the sense of
feeling self-conscious and being conscious of self as an identity.
The more empowered you are to work with these holographic-energetic
structures, the less self-conscious you will be. When you are
self-conscious, everything is reflected back to you and then
processed. So I say this, and it reflects back, and I say "This
is the effect it had on so-and-so," and I process it through
my ego. That's what self-consciousness is.
When you come into mastery,
you are no longer attached to the outcome of your words, your
thoughts, your actions. This is what the great enlightened masters
mean by becoming detached. No, you don't become aloof and arrogant
and non-loving. You have compassion, but it is not an attached
compassion; meaning, "I feel compassion for you and I want
to see in the mirror that you're grateful," do you see.
True detachment is not being attached to the results of your
actions, thoughts, words, feelings or deeds--bad or good. Karma
has been created as people are attached to the results. So if
I do good deeds, and I am attached to your thanking me, and on
your putting my name on a plaque?, I create karma. So, in the
next life, you have to give back to me. The idea is not to create
karma. Now, you know that in this great age karma is said to
have been dispelled. It is the end of Kali Yuga, the darkest
spiritual age. You are coming into the Golden Age of Light. But
you create karma within a day, within an hour, and so forth.
You may be wondering why I am
telling you all of this in such detail. It is because it will
help you track your thoughts. You can say: "When I said
this to so-and-so, was I expecting a certain reaction or was
I looking to see what kind of reaction there would be?"
There's the attachment. And so you move into your mastery when
you come out of the reflection back to self. You just do
for its own doing. Or you become what you're doing. You
are in a state of being. Then you get the ecstasy and the joy.
Then you get the freedom from having that mirroring going on,
which only gratifies the mind momentarily and which must be constantly
fed like an addiction, again and again.
I would like someone in the
group to pose a question, a hypothetical situation, and see how
I would answer you. For example: "I have such-and-such a
situation in my life. How would I work with it energy holographically
to manifest?"
Question: I'm going back home to complete the circle with
my father, to claim my power. What I don't understand is why
I have this phobia about encountering spiders when I get there.
Is this somehow connected with my father?
Oh, I have an answer right away,
and this comes right out of [the channel's] experience. What
you're talking about is fear of starting over again and again.
I will tell you a story that shows this is truly what your fear
of spiders is trying to tell you. It's about a very big spider,
big in the body, almost crab-like in color, that built a web
out on [the channel's] patio. She felt very honored that the
spider picked this spot. The problem was that she kept forgetting
that the spider was there, and as she would lean over to water
her flower box plants, she would break part of its web. And she
did this five or six times, each time apologizing profusely to
the spider. Or she would go out and see that the wind had disconnected
some of the lines. She would say: "Doesn't that spider know
how to make strong lines anyway? What's wrong with this spider?
I thought spider webs were supposed to be stronger than this."
Finally, she got used to the
spider's being there and no longer disrupted the web. But what
happened is that the left side of the web kept getting disconnected
over and over and over again. Guess what the spider did? Again
and again, the spider rebuilt its elaborate web. [The channel]
got the message. She thought: When this happens to people, they
complain. They'd be saying: "Oh, God. I have to build this
web again. I just did this. This is so much work!" Whine
whine. Moan moan. Groan groan. Do you see? But animals don't
complain. This is the great lesson of nature. They just do what
they're intended to do, just as the spider did. Change, you see,
is the nature of all existence, and in Third Dimension it is
the most difficult to relate to change, because "just when
you thought it was safe to go back in the water," there's
Bruce, the shark.
One of the greatest fears of
all humans is big changes, and yet so many of you are actively
seeking these shifts now. You imagine, however, that if you shift
in these ways, then your Ascension path is all going to be beautiful,
and then you can coast for five-thousand lifetimes, or whatever.
There is never any coasting . . . at any level. I never
coast. And, as Jyoti has said, "that is a bummer" in
3-D, because, in the density of the human body, it is intolerable
to the 3rd-dimensional mind to believe that "This goes on
forever at every level of existence." This is purgatory,
like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill one more time. Then
it rolls down, over and over again.
Unencumbered by the body, however,
you experience this as great adventures and opportunities. This
is why your achievement here is so great, and why you are so
honored, and why you are heroes to us. Because doing what you're
doing in physical bodies is incomprehensible on the spiritual
level, and you gain many more "brownie points" by doing
it in a physical body than you do in a disembodied state, which
is why you decided to come here to do this . . . because of the
tremendous merits, if you will, on the Spirit and Soul level,
not only for you but for all in your soul group. For all the
Higher Selves, for all the Oversells, on "up" "up"
up," as you say; for all the angels and Ascended Masters
and all the other Great Beings of Light--every "tiny"
thing that you accomplish here in the light is magnified exponentially,
and only you do not see the greatness of your achievement.
The other vision that I got
when you asked your question about spiders was not that you fear
spiders such as the big, hairy tarantula but more that you fear
the spider's function--the whole process of "building the
web." And this particular spider that I've been telling
you about had a lot of babies too. It was as in the beautiful
story, Charlotte's Web. Do you know that story? It's about
rebuilding. It's about setting up your web that is the whole
center of your universe. Where your food comes in. And then you
wrap it, and then you store it over here in this intersection
of these lines.
And the other thing about a
web that's very appropriate here is that when spiders touch a
part of the web, they hear a sound. That's how they always
know where they are so that they don't get caught in their own
webs. They know where all the bugs are because they touch the
web and they can hear all the relationships of those sounds.
It's like a xylophone. So, you see, the web for you, and the
whole spider thing, is the construct of your life as you have
known it so far. Quite literally, you are the weaver of your
own destiny.
This "phobia" is actually
an energetic pattern, or energetic structure, representing that
issue that can be read by others. Another channel, for example,
might pick up on that structure and translate it into a clairvoyant
image that makes sense to him as a past life in which you are
trapped in a ravine with tarantulas. It hasn't actually happened
in a past life--that just might be how the channel sees it. In
working through these issues, it is perfectly acceptable, and
totally spiritual, to say "I command those energies."
When you're getting energies that are uncomfortable for you,
that are oppressive, that are having a negative or harmful influence
on you, in your mastery it is your right and your duty to say
"I command you to leave." If you want to use the vernacular,
you can say "Get out of my space!"
There is another important consideration
here having to do with not having self-consciousness, and this
is very important. If you are in expectation that your father
is suddenly going to be like Saul on the road to Damascus or
make a dramatic sea change because of where you are, you may
be disappointed. It is up to you to stay in the space
that you have created in your mastery. The changes may not be
sudden or quick with him. There may be a sense of coming up against
a brick wall, and if you get into a reflective thing it may undermine
the conviction and the heartfelt position that you take with
him when you return. Do you see? If you expect that he will suddenly
say, "Oh, my lost daughter. I'm so sorry, and I now have
jumped from being a 3rd-dimensional to a 6th-dimensional being
because of your presence," you will probably be disappointed.
Another way to resolve a phobia
is to become that thing that you fear. This is done in
Native American shape shifting medicine all the time. The idea
is that you get in to the being of the spider and perceive
the world the way a spider does. Incidentally, this one is quite
neat because this is what you're all working toward in your Ascension
consciousness--coming out of separation--so that you don't say:
"The spider and I are different. The spider and I are separate.
The spider is scary and I'm not." When you come out of these
illusions and come into the Oneness of All, you are the
spider. You are the deer. You are All, and All
is you.
This is a nice exercise to do,
and it is something that Native American shamans do as part of
their growth toward that mastery that "shaman" means.
"I shape-shift. I become the fox. I become the wolf. I become
the weasel. I become the eagle and the hawk." Become the
spider for a while. Go into the spider's existence and become
one with that spider, and all fear will go away.
Question: How, specifically, would you direct that energy
to a particular spot in the body--say, for example, for healing?
When you are in discomfort,
or in the disharmony that you call disease, you start focusing
on that place, do you not? Rather intensively, rather repetitively?
This is a good question. We'll experiment here together. Every
time your attention is drawn to that spot, what is your thought?
"That hurts." And you fall "out of love"
with that spot in your body, do you not? This is two-fold. When
you're feeling frustration, anger, victimization, a common reaction
is "Why me?" So you're actually sending non-love to
that place and make it do even more what it's already been doing.
Another method you can use to
release whatever it is from a certain spot is to ask it to speak
to you. Let it tell you what it's expressing, because it's most
often expressing something that you're not allowing yourself
to express. Usually it's something rather deep. So, with love,
the way you would talk to a child who's trying to tell you something,
say: "What is it that you wish to say that nobody else is
listening to?" Children seem to get the most upset when
they're trying to tell you something and you're not listening.
"Please, listen to me." And you can go to that part
of the body and just hear what it's trying to tell you.
And this is the very nature
of separation from Source Creator--the pain that those in 3rd
Density feel lifetime after lifetime. You felt separate from
this part (and it from you) that was in pain. And the greatest
pain that is suffered by humanity is separation from Source Creator.
This, on "a smaller scale," is the same situation as
3rd-dimensional consciousness being separated and fragmented
from the great Divine Love. Just as easily as you have done here,
in this experiment, you can reconnect with the Divine. It is
that simple. Self-Mastery.
What I wanted to say about "I
Am That I Am" is to start thinking of it as a mandala (not
mantra), meaning that it is a circle. The way I would perceive
it is that it's a sort of daisy chain: "I Am That I Am"
in a continuous circle. Truly, the meaning is NOT: "I Am
That I Am" . . . period--end of sentence--but an infinite
circle. You Are Already Where We Are. This is why we tell
you that we wish you not to bow down to us, not to make us your
gurus; we don't wish you to worship us. We see you as equals,
in your terms (we would not use this term because we experience
the Oneness). We do NOT see you as these little people to whom
we talk to try to make you feel better. Only dark beings would
ever say such things to you.
We see you as those working
with us continuously. Understand also that you are working within
other dimensions, and you are working in your expressions in
dimensions from which I am actually "speaking" to you.
In your aspect that you would term "higher," you are
standing beside me talking to yourself here. Do you understand?
You are in all those "places" and all those "dimensions"
at one time, and you are standing next to me looking at you,
now, and talking to yourself now. You, yourselves, are here--wherever
it is I truly am; you are here too, and you are in the same "state"
as I am, only you may not perceive that.
